Today I saw the Light of Christ through spiritual awareness. I was told by many of the people I go to for spiritual guidance that I have a gift of awareness; that I can always tell when I’m falling off or when I’m not growing as much. It can be pretty big burden because if it isn’t fostered in a healthy way, it can lead to heavy self-judgements and anxiety, but for the most part, it’s great blessing. It’s like being my own accountability partner.
Anyway, I felt myself today not being very productive. Now, I don’t mean productivity in the sense of getting homework done or doing chores because I did that today. I mean I didn’t feel like I did anything with purpose today. I just sort of went through the motions. I did my homework because I had to. I did my chores because I was told to. But I didn’t really do anything with a real sense of purpose or passion or drive. I just kind of moseyed around. & I think my “routine” like complacency is settling in because I haven’t really been praying or spending enough time just with God; not focusing on school or drill team or my youth. Just growing and loving and being in the presence of God. I get super busy when school starts again, ESPECIALLY because it’s football season, but I should never be too busy to spend time with God.
I hope you all encountered Christ some way or another today! :)
I love you all!